Good bye Grandma...

Lorraine Shield

January 17, 1918 to February 13, 2012

94 Years Old

(Isn't she beautiful??)

Today my Grandma went to be with Jesus. She is right where she wants to be. I imagine her looking like she does in this picture, beautiful, healthy and dancing with my Grandpa. And finally hugging her mom. And seeing her 2 sisters that she loved so much. My grandma is in Heaven!


I am so grateful I got to be with her when she passed. I didn't think I'd be able to handle it, or that I'd even would want to be there. But when it came down to it there was no place I'd rather would have been. And just knowing where she was going... just blows my mind. She is seeing Jesus face to face.... can you image? I can't wrap my brain around it. But I just picture her dancing up there.

I was staying the night with grandma last night with my mom. It was my mom's turn, all her sisters had a schedule to stay with my grandma around the clock so she'd never be alone. Jade had been staying with my mom on her nights, but I just wanted to this time. I'm sooo glad I did.

My mom called during church, yesterday, to say that the hospice people thought she only had a few hours to live so we raced over there. I didn't want to miss a moment of being with her.

My cousin Kimmy's son, Brian, had started to administer small amounts of morphine every hour to my grandma under hospice guidance. Brian used to work for hospice so he was really great and provided alot of emotional support.

I was so glad to see my grandma. Alot of the family came over knowing she didn't have much longer. Jade talking to grandma...Laura also wanted to stay the night. She just couldn't leave. We just didn't know how long she would have... Laura and I both just couldn't stand it, we had to climb into bed to be as close to her as possible. I think grandma liked it... we would just hold her hand and rub her face and hair...My sweet grandma...Laura hugging on her, too... You can see the smile on grandma's face when she saw Hannah- grandma has always loved the little kids... I think that's where we all get it from... My grandma wanted to sing "Jesus love me" so we did. My mom and I both sang it with her:

Jesus loves me this I know

For the Bible tells me so

Little ones to Him belong

They are weak but He is strong

Yes Jesus loves me

Yes Jesus loves me

Yes Jesus loves me

The Bible tells me so

Before I was saved a few years ago, when things would get really bad and I would be so frustrated, I would sing that song to my self, it was the only song about Jesus I knew... now I know ALOT!

Grandma said some things I want to always remember. She had a little bit of trouble talking. But one of the things she said was "I don't know what's happening but it's wonderful"...

Also, at some point in the morning before I had gotten there, she had said "I can see the sparkles".

Here's Laura and I on either side of her, she kept saying she was so happy to have her granddaughters there. She was so happy... so happy... can you see the smile on her face???

Laura and I both felt like we just couldn't stop staring at her. Holding her hand and watching her. She also said some funny things. She said "Listen to his words of wisdom" when we'd ask her who? She'd just repeat it "Listen to his words of wisdom" I like to think she was talking about Jesus. Then she said "listen to his words of wisdom, listen to my words, and do some silly things".

Oh man we were laughing and crying. There was alot of crying going on yesterday. My mom, Laura, me, and everyone who came thru out the day. We filled up a garbage can of kleenex... my eyes are so sore..She seemed pretty alert when I got there about noon yesterday until about 3 in the afternoon. Our cousin Brian kept giving her the small doses of morphine to keep her comfortable and she never woke up after about 3. But she kept breathing...
Laura and I just kept taking turns laying with her thur out the evening last night. Her breathing was getting more and more shallow and farther apart. Her body just did not want to give up.

After midnight last night Laura and I both noticed her breathing changed. And at 12:15 am this morning... grandma left her body and this earth to go be with her Maker. I love my grandma soo much and I will miss seeing her smiling sweet face. Always offering me cookies and coffee even when she couldn't even get out of her chair. I remember when I was little with my brother we always wanted a slice of cheese at grandma's and she'd always give us cheese.

But I will see my grandma again. I can't wait, but she told me I had to wait that it wasn't my time yet. But I will see you again grandma, and I'll get to meet your mom that you love so much. I can't wait.

Here's my mom and I holding grandma's hand....I'd say "rest in peace" but my grandma is not resting, she is dancing in Heaven with a smile on her face. Never to shed another tear for the rest of eternity!

LOVE YOU GRANDMA.....